My heart is defected.
Defected from all the all the heartaches,
the drama, the mind games.
My mind is defected from lies I have
been told.
My soul is defected from the empty,
long drawn out promises and confessions
of love- endless love,
tales of love, adornment, and
a fantasy
love affair.
My emotional state is so unbalanced,
so fearful of hurt that I no longer
wish to love wholeheartedly.
I no longer wish to
love emotionally.
I was hurt so badly by the love of my life,
the one I gave my heart to,
even when I shouldn’t have because
of the certain circumstances,
yet I took a chance
and fell.
However, I gave in to the confessions of love.
I gave in to the “I love you’s”.
I gave in to the “I miss you’s”.
I was a victim of believing that I
was truly adored.
When in reality, I don’t know what was
really going on. I just know the “I love you’s”
and the “I miss you’s” stopped. The good times
and tender moments ceased.
Everything stopped as if frozen in time.
When everything stopped,
I was left in love with a person
that no longer exists and defected
for life.
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